Friday, April 1, 2016

Addictive behaviors

I have really been struggling this week with emotional eating. It started with Antico pizza after my sons track meet last Saturday and I haven't been able to get it under control since. I start the day off good but then by evening I am craving anything to satisfy me and  although nothing is doing it, I just keep eating. I thought this week would be great since my husband was out of town I wouldn't have the  added temptation that his presence brings, it wasn't better. I was the culprit, I was the one bringing the bad food home and thinking up comfort foods that I could sit on the sofa with. I am not sure what to do, I am thinking there is something more going on than simple portion control. My period is due Monday so that may be my problem. I just cannot wait for it to get here already so my hormone levels can return to normal and I can get my head back on straight. Now that I think about it, I am pretty sure that is what's going on. I remember feeling this very same way a week before my period and having similar eating problems last month. I am going to research things that I can do to help me stay on track this time of month. There has got to be a remedy of some sort right?!?! I mean, I hate the idea of working hard for 3 weeks all to throw it away the week before aunt flow. Now you would think that one week should not unravel the majority of a month spent on the straight and narrow, but as a recovering alcoholic I have no concept of "Moderation"... that word exists in my vocabulary but is not existent once I open the flood gates. And I mean it is a flood gate, I will eat an entire box of dove chocolate cover sorbet pops instead of having one of two. I don't know how to stop, I will want to, but I can't and the more I eat the more I want.  I guess that will forever be my cross to bear as an addict. But there has to be a way to contain the debauchery, to keep it from getting completely out of control.... or at least a way to channel that energy into something else like ; meditation, prayer, service work or my workouts. So I will begin my research, although I am not sure where to begin......Ah, I just thought of my health psychology professor. I will start with her. There has got to be a way to get to the root of what happens to me every month and how it triggers my addictive behaviors and manifests itself with food and a subsequent way to ease or eradicate the problem.... So the search for relief begins.....

1 comment:

  1. I have the same problem. For some reason eating bananas helps me. I eat 2 sometimes 3 at one time and I feel satisfied. I crave sweets and bananas take care of the craving.