Thursday, July 12, 2018

GOD is that you?

The other day I saw a series of numbers:111( which means my thoughts and ideas are coming to reality) and then a few days later I saw: 555 ( which means positive change, my life aligning). A girl I know went on and on about these being angel numbers and that I needed to pay attention as my angel is trying to communicate with me. It went in one ear and out the other ๐Ÿ™„...then I cut my hair and decided on a path of re-invention and

What's crazy is I know why I cut my hair but it has brought up some deeper emotional stuff. Feelings and

thoughts I am trying to make sense of. But I knew I needed and wanted a change.

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Then yesterday I read a scripture that caught my attention and brought those incidents to mind. Then this morning I received an encouraging message from a friend that brought this whole thing full circle for me and has me thinking that I should be listening.
So I don't know if paying attention to numbers is a contradiction to being a christian but I believe God is trying to tell me that my life is aligning, let go of the past and embrace this new chapter of my life. Trust the choices I am making as he is guiding me but keep him at the center of it all.
The scripture was John 11:25 which states; "I am the resurrection and the life" ๐Ÿ˜ฎ There's a little more but this is that part that evoked an emotional response, just days after I decided it was time to re-invent, restore and transform from head to toe. Ok God, you've got my undivided attention But my fear is that

I will be distracted or something will happen to throw me off course. I guess right now I should stay in pray and trust that I really am being guided. But how......

Thursday, July 5, 2018

Creating a new balance

Last we "spoke" I was reconciling with my husband. Well we are back to living under the same roof again, which has it's ups and downs. My husband is not always the best influence on a healthy lifestyle. He thinks he is but more often than not he isn't. One of the things I struggled with the most was his always wanting to eat out. So finding my balance since us moving back in together has been tough to say the least.

I really think of it as creating a new balance versus finding my old balance because the dynamics are different. I now have to consider cooking for two other people again, their cravings and treat moods. So often I find myself retreating to my bedroom early as to avoid falling into the treat trap they have created here. I have to create a new mindset and backup plan for when I'm feeling out numbered in the bad decision arena.

I have to create a new routine......does that make sense? Or a new safe space. The good thing is I think I know where to start and the beauty in creating anything is deciding what you want that to feel and look like. This gives me the freedom to sit quietly and get to know me, where I am right now and reinvent or renew myself. That's exciting....right? This gives me the opportunity to decide what I want this time in my life to look like, how I want it to feel and how I want to move in it. How do I want to recreate me?

Well..... I know I want to be well put together, elegant, athletic, well versed, cultured, zen, loving, nurturing, successful, well traveled, fun, funny, at peace, spiritual and in love. That's what I want to create. I am excited <3

Saturday, June 16, 2018

Hello again

Well it has certainly been a while. I have been being pulled in a million different directions these last few months. Reconciling with my husband, getting a teenager through graduation and preparing for college. I guess my blog fell through the cracks of my busy life. I will do my best to not allow that to happen again. Well....I am on a new journey if you will. So much to update, I guess I should just take it one day at a time and share as the mood hits me.  I don't know if I shared here before that I've been trying to decide if I want another baby. I think I do, sometimes I really really do. So much so that we even tried for a few months. Then other times I am not sure.

But recently my husband (who just turned 50) decided he doesn't want another child ;( Now, I know there are a combination of reasons for his hesitation but that we will cover in another blog post.

So because of this new development I have had to sadly redirect my energy into building my body and my business. Not because of where I have to redirect but why I have to redirect. Which should be entertaining or at the very least interesting for you, as I pour my heart out over the next few months of maneuvering this new reality.

Any who, we'll chat later :)

Monday, March 12, 2018

I am grateful

    The other day when I was working out I started to cry. I was a little sad but also grateful. I was grateful that....I not only have the desire to be fit, but that I am capable of pursuing it.
    I wasn't always like that this. I didn't grow up in a home of athletes and my brothers didn't play sports. My parents had to work, they didn't have time to workout.....or so it seemed.
    So how the hell did this wonderful lifestyle come to me? Well that story is long but.....I'm so glad it did.

    So, I started to cry because I GET to lift weights, go for a run or ride a bike. I GET to feel the benefits of this lifestyle, when so many people can't.
    I talk to so many women that have the desire but physically cannot because of injuries, limitations or illness. They are so desperate to do the things I usually take for granted and this day that struck me.... and I cried.
    I cried because my heart wished I could do something more for them. But I can't, all I can do is cherish every workout, even the sucky ones and continue to do my best to help as many people as possible.
    So on those days when I'm not feeling it I will say to myself "if you continue to waste the time and abilities you've been given, what will you do if they're gone. Will you wish you hadn't squandered Gods precious gifts of time, opportunity and ability or will you take control of your life and do it for those that can't?"
    In honor of everyone that can't, I PROMISE..... that I will not waste, what I've been given

Monday, March 5, 2018

Reality check

I was having a tough time a couple of days ago. I was in tears because I was feeling frustrated and discouraged. I've hit yet another plateau and I felt defeated.
As I was preparing for my weekly prayer session with a fellow coach Yvonne Rocha I told her what was going on and she snapped me out of it.
She reminded me of how far I've come and how the body works when making these huge changes. Things I already know but sometimes I don't listen to. ๐Ÿ˜Š
She told me to go back in my photos and look and who I used to be vs. who I am now. She reminded me that I am stronger then I was back then. That I do things I only dreamt about doing back then. She reminded me that it's ok to feel like this as it's normal but don't wallow in it and don't let those lies and thoughts of defeat conquer me. Because that's not who I am anymore. Thank you Yvonne, you helped me get my mojo back๐Ÿ˜ƒ
These women are my family and they hold me down EVERY. SINGLE. DAY!!
Coaching has changed my life, it's soooo much more than weight loss. It's about living your absolute best life and paying it forward alongside the most amazing people on the planet๐Ÿ’•

So when I look at this not only do I recognize how far I've come....I remember how miserable I was back then and how I felt when I took this photo. Thankfully I haven't felt like that in a really long time

Wednesday, February 28, 2018

Getting faster

Best run EVERRRRRR!! I felt so freakin' good on this run. When I say I want to cry. I love running but I thought I would just have to settle for being a slower runner. I had been running about the same pace for a couple of years. I would get a little faster sometimes but never by much. 

Then to further drive home what I thought was my destined speed in my biomechanics class I learned that some of us just have more slow twitch muscles. So, I made peace with my consistently slow pace. I mean, nothing is wrong with being a slow runner, but I wanted to be faster. So as you know I started a program called 80 Day obsession.
Well let me just tell you, I knew that working on my core and my glutes would help with my running but I had no idea that this is what I was in store for.
Today my recovery run was 1 minute and 27 seconds faster per mile than my usual pace. My whole perspective of what kind of runner I am destined to be has just changed. It used to be that I thought getting under a 10 minute mile would never happen for me.....well not anymore.  I couldn't be happier and more pumped right now. Day 40/80 #i❤️running #runningmakesmehappy

Sunday, February 25, 2018

Healtier Baked Ziti

  • 1/2 box of Whole Wheat pasta
  • 1 red container or 3/4 cup of part-skim ricotta cheese
  • 1 jar of all natural tomato sauce
  • 1/2lb of lean ground turkey
  • 1 tsp of extra virgin olive oil
  • 1/2 c of Italian shredded cheese
  • 1 tsp each of oregano, garlic powder, Italian seasoning, basil, sea salt, and black pepper.

Preheat oven to 350 degrees
Cook the noodles to desired consistency, while noodles are cooking brown your ground turkey in the olive oil. Drain excess fat after browning. In a large bowl mix ricotta, sauce, spices, noodles and cooked and drained turkey. Stir well until combined. Pour mixture into a 13x9 inch pan. Sprinkle with cheese and bake for 20 minutes on 350 or until cheese melted and bubbly. This is by far my fav baked ziti recipe and guilt free.